shift/armand.json

[
    { "character": 0, "text": "hey, are you up?" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "It's like lunchtime here lol" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "i'll take that as a yes then" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "good because i'm spiralling" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "What's up?" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "it feels like there's this thing in my head, right" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "this golden, wonderful thing that's capable of such wonderful things" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "but it's timid - so timid! - and always in flux" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i try to approach it and it hides" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "every time i tihnk i'vve got a hold on it, it changes into something else" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "like i see my goal and it's not that far away, but then i get over to it and it turns out it's actually a bridge, or a tunnel" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and now i have to go through that instead" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "it never ends!" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "That sounds like, the archetypical Journey of Creative Self-Discovery, friend" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Get new material" },

    { "character": 0, "text": ">:|" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "it's frustrating" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i'm frustrated" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "Maybe you need a change of scenery" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Have you tried going for a walk?" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "i immediately regret messaging you" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i don't know what i expected" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i just wanted to vent a bit i guess" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "Hey, you vent away" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "I'm not in any rush" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "like, i see people with these honed skills, right" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "artists online, musicians, authors, whatever" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and i love all of these things" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and i know that honing a skill takes time, too" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i am more than aware of that" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "but i feel like you kind of have to pick one, and run with it?" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "specialise, you know?" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and my specialty is plants" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "You like plants" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "yeah i do like plants" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "plants are great" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "but plants aren't music" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "they're not a novel, or a poignant game or something" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "they're creative, but only in the abstract way that, like, running is creative" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "the kind of trophy-for-taking-part creative" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "maybe" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "idk" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "maybe i'm imposter syndroming myself" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "but i want to make those \"real\" creative things too" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and i am frustrated because i feel like i can't pick" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i can't specialise" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i love all of them, how could i focus on writing at the cost of anything visual?" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "there's so precious little time to use on any of these things" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "and i feel like i waste that time trying to pick something, instead of actually doing anything" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "I don't think you want to be a writer" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "I don't think you want to be a musician either" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "You're definitely a creative, though" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Non-creatives are never this difficult" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Look, if you want to write, write, if you want to draw, draw" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "You don't have to pick one!" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "You don't have to define yourself by that label, or use it at all" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "If you'll indulge a little anecdote" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "please" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "You remember when I lived in Madrid?" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "for a year I agonised over whether I was fluent enough" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "I had a social life, studied the culture, explored the country and stuff all in Spanish, but always just reckoned nah, I got lucky, or the locals were being kind with my fumbled locution" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "In my head I was (and honestly, still am) a total beginner" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "It was only when I was on the way back home I got to talking to some guy in a bar, and somehow got onto languages" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "He only spoke English himself, but he asked me: can you have a conversation? Can you make friends? Can you help someone who's lost?" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "And I figured well, yeah" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "By those measures, I'm fluent" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "I don't know what CEFR level I am, but also, I don't really care?" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "It's not like someone's going to check my credentials before engaging in conversation" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Sorry it was a bit wandering but I think my point is basically that it's about what you do, not what you are" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Or what you think you are" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "We are defined by our actions" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "What you think you are, or even what someone else thinks you are, doesn't really matter at all" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "Labels and nouns are useful to get ideas across, but they're not real, right?" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "So don't try to force them upon things which are" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "<3" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "thanks" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "thanks for getting me out of my head" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "No problem Rye" },
    { "character": 1, "text": "You take care up there" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "i will" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "hey, could you do me a favour?" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "If it's not insane" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "next time you see a tree" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "send me a picture?" },
    { "character": 0, "text": "i miss trees" },

    { "character": 1, "text": "I'll grab one on my walk home" },

    { "character": 0, "text": "xoxo" }
]